It fits in with an overall concept – in that my web design company is Ozbon, and Ozbon Photography seemed to make sense. But somehow it never seemed right.  It didn’t fit with my preferred option for keeping Business separate from Creativity, the name never really gelled – more of a “that’ll do” than a “that’s perfect”, and so the entire thing stagnated a bit.

But now I’ve hit on a “brand” for the creative side of my life, and it’s one that is perfect for me.

So as a result, I’m going to be moving from Ozbonography to a new home at Digit Extractum . There’s two main sections under the Digit Extractum name – Photography and Writing. No prizes for guessing which one Ozbonography will be moving to…

The move will almost certainly involve losing most (if not all) of the posts I’ve written here. The only ones that’ll stay will be the ones that still make sense, I think.

In fact, it almost feels like a new start – a start with something new, and that will (I hope) work far better for me than Ozbonography has.

I’m constantly in awe of people like David Maisel, whose projects include things like Asylum (all taken in the desolate /defunct Oregon State Hospital) and Library of Dust, also taken at the Oregon State Hospital.  Maisel’s “About the project” page explains

Library of Dust depicts individual copper canisters, each containing the cremated remains of patient from a state-run psychiatric hospital. The patients died at the hospital between 1883 (the year the facility opened, when it was called the Oregon State Insane Asylum) and the 1970’s; their bodies have remained unclaimed by their families.

I find these projects fascinating. There are countless others that have no hold over me at all – but they all have a hold over their photographers, and to me that’s the important thing.

I’ve got a couple of ideas for long-term photography projects, but I still need to find the inspiration, the urge, the project that takes a hold on me, rather than being “just” a project to get involved in.

Maybe that takes time, that as the project goes from “just” a project to something that needs to be completed. I don’t know. I wonder if I’ll ever find out.

First of all, I’m not a fan of self-portraits at all. I understand that they’re a form that makes use of a cheap model (oneself) who doesn’t charge by the hour, and who can sit for hundreds of photos (paintings, whatever) without complaint. Some self-portraits are fascinating – I’m thinking particularly of the M C Escher “Self Portrait in a Spherical Mirror” or the series done by Robert Mapplethorpe of himself every year as HIV and AIDS affected his body and face – but for the most part I just find them to be self-indulgent.  It’s fair to say they’re far from my favourite genre of artworks.

From a commercial point of view, I also don’t get self-portraits. If you want to sell photos, believe me, they’re not likely to be ones of yourself. Sure, they’re great to hang in a gallery once you’re dead – but they’re not going to sell while you’re still alive. (unless you’re particularly well thought-of and/or pretty)  In fact I’d say that commercially you’re going to be able to sell pretty much anything except self-portraits. Someone out there will like what you’ve done, but only friends and family might be interested in a picture of yourself.

The final problem is more to do with my own self-image – I don’t like being in photos, I don’t like the way I look, never have and likely never will. So for me a self-portrait is pretty much torture incarnate as well – and I’ll likely never find one that I’m happy with. Which makes for a further issue when it comes to the assignment.

So I don’t know, I just have a problem with self-portraits.